Tuesday 28 April 2015

A long time between drinks...

Wow it has been awhile since I wrote down things about me and my life. Life has been very up and down. I have been a little bit of a.. Well.. Big bitch of late. I can admit it, I am owning my bad behaviour and thanking the gods that my family and my amazing husband love me more than I deserve! I'm not really sure of why my mood is so volatile at the moment but I really need it to stop, cause I'm sure that love will eventually wear off if I can't stop this. I do believe it has something to do with hormones, so I might start there with trying to fix me. 

Life has soldiered on and I can't believe that as of Friday it will be May! 4 months post shop sale and I do believe I'm getting the hang of life after a cafe! I'm working three days a week doing my own thing and still home for my girls. Balance people, I'm finding it! It's flipping humbling and a just plain Toyota moment. 

I'm also a hermit. I don't go out much. It had been over three weeks since I had ventured into town. I'm not doing this to upset anyone or to distance myself from people. I'm just happy in my bubble and after being in the public eye for 4 years, I just think I need a bit of time. 

The girls have been pretty good. We are having lots of hormones creeping into our home. Life with girls! Snapping and sour faces sometimes rule our days and then like boom, they snap out of it and are beautiful, helpful and loveable girls. So in a nutshell, Marty and I are seriously winging it every minute of the day in this thing called parenting. Forever learning, stumbling lots and always in love with them, no matter how much they push our buttons.

The shouse is getting there! About to start the mezzanine level which will make life so much more comfortable for all of us in our tiny home that we love more than anything. The girls and I have been working together and building dry rock walls, which look super cool. The gardens are growing and the veggie patch is in need of expansion. The retaining walls are complete, more use for pallets I did find! Everything takes time but when I look at where we were a year ago, I'm amazed at what we have achieved. 

So life is busy in a quiet way. It's happening almost under the radar and I'm loving life for the first time in what seems like forever. When we look back at our life I don't regret any choices we have made, it has just been stepping stones to the future. Things we have done to discover where we are headed and want most out of life. A life filled with love and laughs. A life that is focused with the important stuff. I will try to remember to write more often....