Notre rėve

A phrase I live by is 'don't follow your dreams, chase them'

So today we signed the final paperwork for the start of our happily ever after. We signed the final paperwork for our block of land that we are going to build our forever home on. A home that will have a room each for our girls, a home that will have room to move in, a home that will sit on the top of our hill and be our slice of heaven on earth. 

This dream has been ours since we got married 13 years ago. A dream of having a place that we truly feel at home in. 

Once we set foot on this block of land my heart melted. I fell insanely in love with the view, the peace, the landscape, the serenity! I felt like the father in the movie 'the castle'. I felt like I had found my way home. 

It has been a battle, that is nothing new in our life. Nothing has come easy, except the twins, they were a little happy accident. We have always started at the wrong side of the mountain and we have had to cross canyons, Rivers and climb steep terrain to get to our goals, but we never say die! We just trudge on till the finish line. 

So on Wednesday morning we will finally cross that line and own our "notre rėve" which in English is 'our dream'. With blood, sweat and tears kind of passion! 

So very lazy this Sunday

Im a mother of 4 young children and i slept until 11.06am this morning. Even to me this was a huge shock! I mean the children didn't sleep that long. I haven't had that sort of sleep in since before children, so over 11 years. 

So I ventured out of our bedroom and found I followed the beautiful smell of freshly baked croissants coming from the kitchen and my smiling husband standing there in his element making food for others to enjoy! I was greeted with smiles, kisses and lots of squishy cuddles from my little ladies. 

As we ate brunch the girls said they wanted to have a lazy day of movies and pj's. This only lasted an hour and the call of outside became to loud for the youngest 3. They played the rest of the day with our two dogs pretending they we training the dogs to do an agility course. Very cute and gave me a few giggles watching them trying to teach our seven year old boxer new tricks. 

I washed and washed more clothes! Felt like I had a mountain to climb to get through it, but by days end both bathroom baskets were empty and my dining table was filled with folded washing. 

To complete my somewhat lazy day and bath with my hubby and then a yummy dinner with fresh baked bread (first attempt, which was not that good!).

Hope everyone's Sunday had moments of laughter, relaxing and connection. 

Bx

The day after tomorrow...

Well Last night i shared my blog on Facebook, for all of my friends to see. Don't ask me why i made this choice after keeping it to myself for a couple of months but i did. Once i shared it though, my mind raced with the realisation that my blog is the turnings of my inner most thoughts, that i really only share with my Marty. My blog is almost letters to him, so their is not even a wall in my mind that i can hide from him in.

So i shared and people read, and read and read. I went from an average of 18 readers a day to 189. As the figure grew so did my worry. Worry of what i had shared, worry of how people would take what i shared, worry of if i had exposed myself to the core and that it could back fire. Marty could see my stress and assured me that these are my stories, my battles and my highs and if people couldn't read it without judging then they had no place in my life, heart or mind.

Martin is always the first reader of my new posts. He reads them so intently that i sit on the edge of the seat waiting to know if it is good, if he understands, if he likes it even. He is my forever sounding board, i always know i will get an honest answer to any question, whether i will like the answer or not.

This morning to say i was a little nervous to leave the house may have been an understatement. My mind raced, my heart pounded at coming face to face with friends that may have read it. To me my blog is a healing process. For me to write such personal things about my life is great. I find it relaxing and a way of acknowledging and owning all that i am.

As we own a coffee shop in a small town, it wasn't long before i was talking to people that knew some of my dirty little secrets. So i decided that i shared so i can bring it up. People have been beautiful about it. Respecting me for sharing and it has started some in depth and amazing conversations today. I feel like i had broken some wall between us as proud people, that saying I'm having a bad day is ok. Being kind to each other and ourselves is something we all want.

I broke protocol,  I put my head on the chopping block and was prepared to take the axe, but i was spared and taken to the castle tower and showed their is another way. Showed i can be me, without judgement, without worry, without fear of the axe falling. So tomorrow may bring greater things, may bring greater joys and sometimes may bring greater falls but there is always the day after tomorrow to start another day of almost anything!

Bx

A slice of fun in the winter sun...

Marty and i decided that due to the school holidays, that the girls deserved to not have to get up and go to the shop at the crack of dawn everyday! So we are taking turns at having sometime off.

Today the girls and i had a very big sleep in. I awoke to the sound of silence in the house. Martin had kissed me good bye a few hours earlier, he stoked the fire to make sure his princess were toasty warm. The sun streamed in our coloured glass front door, painting the walls yellow, green and purple. i got up to check the time as my phone had gone flat over night and found it to be 9.36am. OMG, all the girls were still in bed, including Miss Emerson who never sleeps past 7.30am.

Obviously Marty and i were right in that they needed some rest. So they slowly appeared up and in no real hurry to get going, all the while asking if we could go to the park. It was a beautiful winter day, warm even for July. So we eventually made it to the park after visiting the post office, the shop, the accountant and fold 4 loads of washing so i could get into our bed tonight. You know all the normal things you do on your day off!

So with bikes and skates at the ready we set off. The girls were happy to see so many of their friends at the park. They played for a few hours while i continued to watch and sort out our house finance and staff group certificates. Multi tasking to the max!

I think my skin may have gone into shock with the amount of sun it received today, but it was a lovely feeling as I'm indoors all the time. It's starting to feel like we are getting the hang of the work/life balance. That the girls only have such a short time as kids, that we need to make sure we take time out for them!