Remind, review and renew

I haven't blogged in a while and for really no other reason than I haven't had anything to really say. Life has been great! We got back from our family trip of a lifetime with a new found appreciation for our lives, love and for myself. I came back determine to lose the weight that has crept up on me over the last 12 months. My family is so close it's hard to describe. My love for Marty has grown even more, like we have cracked open a new level in the game of life. 

So since our return there has been a calm over our family. Almost like the world around us just said your doing good. Be happy and everything will always work out. Our family dynamic has synced even better. The girls are calm. We talk, God do we talk. All the time. The girls sit around the dinner table and talk about everything that happens in their day. 

With our family being so in sync I have finally kicked my butt into gear and started working out, eating better and being kind to myself. So far I have lost 5cm around my waist which is great progress that has me motivated to keep going. It's funny how when you feel good about yourself, there is a confidence that grows so big that it seems strange that you didn't have it before. 

This confidence and feeling of self worth changes everything. Your feelings of worry over old grudges. Worries of people disappearing from your life for no reason. The grudges and resentment just disappear. All of a sudden you just think -what's the point? Life never stops for your troubles. Everyday comes just like the last. The confidence is great and makes for a more positive outlook on each day. 

So I now get to Marty and me. Omg that man and I just keep growing together. I never thought I could find someone that I seriously have zero, yep zero secrets from. He knows everything, my truths, my fantasies, my likes, my dislikes. He is my true north, actually he is my freaking everything. He is just like part of me that completes the puzzle. He makes the pieces fit. When I'm realistic with out him coming into my life I wouldn't have the life I lead, the love that surrounds me and the family I call mine. 

Life's great in the clouds