Talking out loud

Well finishing up at the shop happened with a forced stay in hospital. Two weeks later and I'm starting to feel really good. Getting back into exercising and eating good. Being at home is a little strange, almost boring and very lonely at times. I'm filling my days with a job list and trying to achieve all of those things but when it's quiet, it's really quiet! Almost talking to yourself worthy. 

With this said, it's a joy to cook meals again and be a proper family on the weekends. To not have the distraction of the shop ruling your brain and ruining every family moment, because your just not focused on the here and now! It's nice to be able to give the girls time. To take them to the pool in the afternoons and let them be kids. To curl up with my husband on the lounge at night and not be talking about work and thinking about things to be done tomorrow. 

So I applied for a job last month and yesterday I got a call to come in for an interview. It's part time and would be perfect for me. I'm not getting to excited or caught up in the thought of getting it as what will be, will be. My only thoughts have been, it's been a while between interviews and I'm a little nervous! Like, butterfly's and stomach churning type of nerves. 

I think after my night of constant thought of the impending interview, I have come to the conclusion I'm just going to be myself. They will either like me or not, but at least I will be comfortable. I think if I keep that thought pattern then it should be fine. 

So I better start my day, cleaning, gardening and exercising are on the list today.